I understand how critical it is to be mentally and emotionally available for a relationship. I know that memories of your past that are close to your present could either block, delay, or destroy your chances of experiencing love in the future. So, I decided recently, to cast all hope and faith aside of ever crossing paths with a woman I was once in love with. I felt I needed to do that because if I am to meet my wife, my eyes have to open to see her and my heart has to be open receive her—otherwise I wouldn’t.
Moving on from the past isn’t the only reason why I’m ready for a relationship. Personal growth and spiritual maturity are also two reasons. I’ve been single for five years now. Of course I’ve dated within that time frame. I had casual relationships that didn’t move past the point than what the opportunity presented. However, as time went on, and I’ve matured as a man, and grew closer to God in my relationship with him, which made me desire something that paralleled to my growth. I wanted to be with a woman who was either on the same level as I was or desired, not for me, but for herself, that she wanted to know more about God so that she could have a close and intimate relationship with Him.
Note: I don’t expect a woman to be where I’m at in my walk with God. We all come to know God at different points our lives. I may be the reason that my future wife desires an intimate relationship with God. Or, I may meet someone who may encourage me to step things up. That’s the beauty coming together at different points. It’s an opportunity for both people to grow or have a positive impact in some way.
I’m at a point in life, that if I were to share my body with someone, I want it to be with my wife. A few days before my birthday of this year, God spoke to my heart about purity. He wanted me to have a pure spirit, and to deny any sexual immorality. My mind and heart had to be clean. I thought it was just related to my purpose/calling, but as the days rolled, having a pure spirit was connected to love life.
Going back to what I initially said about dealing with any past hurts or unresolved feelings so you could be emotionally and mentally available, your spirit has to be cleaned so that it could be available. Available to receive something right, sacred and purr. Which is a virtuous woman.
I’m ready for a serious relationship that could lead to the moment I bend knee to propose to her. And to that very day when we look each other in the eyes and say I do. That’s what I want. That’s what I’m looking for to. . I want consistency, certainty, excellent communication, honesty and faithfulness. Any other than that, I have no interest.